As far as I remember wikipedia was the first search result that I skimmed through. Other search results on the first page were islamic websites, not anti-islam ones.
A week after our first conversation about the subject I wanted to meet him and break this relationship off. It wasn't anything in particular about Islam that threw me off but the fact that I had to be Muslim for him to accept me.
There was also another factor. He knew he would be coming back to Saudi and it was hardly negotiable. Saudi seemed to me as a land of scorching hot, men in white cloaks while women draped in meters of black looking as non-entities. It certainly didn't give me warm fuzzy feelings.
I met up with him and said that I can't be with him because he doesn't accept me for who I am. It wasn't a matter of an annoying habit or behaviour that he wanted me to change. It was my religion, my faith and my outlook on life. And I wasn't even a practicing Catholic! I wasn't going to church, reading the Bible, proclaiming Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. None of these things!
My intuition was right but even 2 weeks didn't pass and we were back together as if nothing happened... Man, I was stupid! I told him that I will continue reading about Islam, Qur'an and life in Saudi. And so I did. There are plenty of websites on which you can read the Qur'an in many different translations but since I had to do lots of reading online for my studies I was sick and tired of pdf or online resources. I wanted a book. I asked him to bring me a copy of the Qur'an from our local mosque, after all he was there at least once a week. It took him FIVE months to bring me the Qur'an!!! I can't remember who translated it but it was one of those printed or sponsored by Saudi. By the time I received it, I already read excerpts online and well... I didn't like what I read... It does show, however, how involved he was in teaching me about Islam and introducing me to his faith. He considered it so important for me to be a Muslim, yet couldn't find time to read the Qur'an with me and do research... Tbc...
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I agree it's a bit strange, we would have thought he would have helped you to know more about his religion and be open to answer your questions and talk with you.
But anyway he was not ready to accept you as you are.......
Don't change religion because of him. You should do it for yourself and love of God. You will regret doing it if you don't fully understand it all. It seems that if he had more interest he would be showing you things about Islam in daily life, things of that nature, that makes learning Islam easier. If you truly want to learn for yourself I can help you learn some.
The BUT is that it has to be of your own will and need.
hi Muslim Butterfly :-)
when I started learning about Islam, he told me (paraphrasing): "the most important thing is that you accept that there is only one God and Muhammad is his messenger. You will learn everything else later. You can't know everything about religion before you convert"
which I think is silly... why would I want to proclaim the truth of sth I have no idea about?
thank you for your kind offer Muslim Butterfly. I learned a lot about Islam for the past year and a half and I continue to lear, hence the blog.
I will be posting my thoughts on the Qur'an and Islam in general soon and you are more than welcome to contribute :-) however, I don't think I will EVER convert. Sth really extraordinary would have to happen for me to convert to Islam... and I really don't want to waste your time... Thank you for your comment :-)
Well It is simply embarrassing for me that he took 5months to bring Qur'an for you
hehe you would think that for somebody who wanted me to convert so badly, it would have taken less time ;-)
I wanted to gift my sister with whom i didn't love for 21 years as she is my only sis. I brought a book for her and it was raining cats and dogs and i thought i would drown but i still managed to bring it on because i think if i would have, i will be serving Islam so he should had also bring it the other day
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